OCD

a.)obsessive compulsive disorder, a mental illness resulting in persistant illogical fears and ideas, and often, particular habits created and followed out so as to avoid the fears and anxiety they cause.

b.) why i suffer.
a.) in the sixth grade, i was so afraid of choking on food that i would only eat soup or mashed potatoes. i weighed 60 lbs, and almost died before i slowly was brought onto solid foods again.

b.) i’m afraid of eveything now. its stupid, but i can’t stop it. i’m afraid of people, yet i love them. i want love, but i’m too cowardly to look for it. instead i get caught up in the deluded fantasies in my head and wait for the world to go away.
short for obsseive compulsive disorder

ocd is a disorder that cause obessive thoughts and/or compulsive actions resulting from a shortage of a chemical inside the frontal lobe of the brain. there are many ways to take care of ocd. the two best ways are behavior therapy and medication (what i use). unlike most other mental disorders people with ocd lead mostly normal lives and are aware of their disorder. the disorder can be extremely stressful on it’s victims. in fact is a stress so bad that most people without the disorder have probably ever experienced.
because of ocd george kept checking to see if the toilet was flushed even though he knew it was.

because of ocd jeff constantly washed his hands for germs until they became blistered and raw.

because of ocd andrew couldn’t handle a gun because he was afraid he would harm someone he cared about with it.
one of the most hardest disorders to live with.

when you have it, its difficult you feel empty, you get headaches when people don’t do things your way, you become a perfectionist, you take your anger out by screaming, you don’t like to talk to a therapist, you hate germs.

your therapist continues to tell you to shorten your ocd, “rituals” you feel extremly awkward and empty.

you hate it when people make fun of ocd,
you hate when people call it a ” mental disorder”
you hate it when people call you ” crazy ”

you get scared & nervous, very very quickly.

sometimes ocd can lead to panic attacks, anxiety disorders, ulcers, and depressions.

incase you didn’t notice, i have ocd, so take it from me, not some -sshole who’s making fun of it.
therapist: try to not do your rituals.
ocd patient: its hard, i feel so strange.
an anxiety disorder that is characterized by recurrent, unwanted thoughts, or obsessions, and possible repet-tive behaviors, or compulsions. performing these so-called “rituals,” provides only temporary relief, and not performing them leaves a person feeling bothered and anxious.
every time someone touches me, i have to itch that spot. yes, my rear too. gets awkward. but i can control it to extents. like loving embrace, i can deal with. but when someone deliberately pokes me, or taps me to get my attention, i’ve got to itch it.

when i’m on the computer, n-body can be standing on my right side. i don’t know why, that’s just the way it is.

i need to wear a blanket over my shoulders around one of my older brothers. it’s only with him too, and i absolutely cannot stand to be around him without something covering my shoulders. i’ve been told that’s ocd, at least.
a mental disorder in which there is a chemical imbalance in the brain.
it really sucks a lot. i keep thinking the world’s going to end and every time i hear an airplane or any noise i keep running to my window and stare outside until it goes away because i think it’s an asteroid.

i also hide food because i don’t want people to think i’m fat or get yelled at by my mom.

it’s a very, very depressing disorder and i hate it very much.
i take a small dosage of anafranil for my ocd.
the doubting disease. consumer of attention. contaminate of reason. like chains to the soul. how i long to be free. how i long to be me.
explaining ocd to someone is like trying to paint a picture without paint
you must repeat things & things must be “perfect” in your own way.

my ocd makes me turn off every light in my house at night.

i have to shut doors, or i will not feel “right”. and will become extremley bothered.

before i go to bed, i turn the volume on the t.v down all the way. but must leave the t.v itself on.

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